What happens when I go on vacation?

I come home needing to buy toilet paper.

Sho shoft but still fat

I just had a facial. I think she exfoliated two layers of my skin. Then I think she put on five layers of moisturizer. My skin is sooooo soft and glowing right now. I think I'm going to do this regularily. It was really inexpensive and convenient.


Tonight I am going to have my annual St. Patrick's Day dinner. Corned beef, cabbage, potatoes and Irish soda bread. We're having it early so everyone can make it. This is a new tradition my dad started about seven or eight years ago. He's only a quarter Irish which makes me only an eighth but it's something he wants to celebrate and that means good food. It's my favorite meal of the year.


I had my doctors appointment this week. Thanks to my thyroid disease all my tests came back shitty. Triglycerides and cholesteral are really bad but suprisingly my thyroid levels are fine. So, now I have to cut out sugar and up my exercise. One good thing is that I've lost enough weight to get out of the "obese" BMI. I am now "overweight" (still F-A-T).

Three days 'til Florida!

So in love with this

Pictures of You - The Cure

I've been looking so long at these pictures of you
That I almost believe that they're real
I've been living so long with my pictures of you
That I almost believe that the pictures are
All I can feel

Remembering You standing quiet in the rain
As I ran to your heart to be near
And we kissed as the sky fell in
Holding you close
How I always held close in your fear
Remembering You running soft through the night
You were bigger and brighter and whiter than snow
And screamed at the make-believe
Screamed at the sky
And you finally found all your courage
To let it all go

Remembering You fallen into my arms
Crying for the death of your heart
You were stone white
So delicate
Lost in the cold
You were always so lost in the dark
Remembering You how you used to be
Slow drowned
You were angels
So much more than everything
Hold for the last time then slip away quietly
Open my eyes
But I never see anything

If only I'd thought of the right words
I could have held on to your heart
If only I'd thought of the right words
I wouldn't be breaking apart
All my pictures of you
Looking so long at these pictures of you
But I never hold on to your heart
Looking so long for the words to be true
But always just breaking apart
My pictures of you

There was nothing in the world
That I ever wanted more
Than to feel you deep in my heart
There was nothing in the world
That I ever wanted more
Than to never feel the breaking apart
All my pictures of you

Kids these days

I went shopping at Target with my friend and her daughter (my six-year old goddaughter). Once again I was asked by the little munchkin why I wasn't married yet. Simply put, I haven't found anyone I want to marry. Conveniently an associate from the Target deli walked by just as I was commenting on how cute the little Diet Coke cans are "cuuuute!" He said "oh thanks. Oh you mean the cans" and he continued on. It was funny and the timing was perfect. A couple seconds later my goddaughter says, "maybe you should marry him". Yes, maybe I should. If only it were that simple.

This somehow led to a conversation about my job (or lack of job). She asked me if I had a job and I informed her in fewer words that my services were no longer required, I was laid off, my ass was fired. Really, I explained I didn't have a job at the moment and I'm looking. Her comment: what do you do all day? Just sit around?

It makes me happy too

From Post Secret

Oh c'mon!

I started my job search. I'm feeling good about what's available. However, just to apply is quite the ordeal. If you apply online a profile has to be made on the original search engine. From there, many job postings have links to apply. This brings you to yet another profile to fill in. All of these require usernames, passwords. Some passwords require at least six characters, some require at least eight. One site require a password that was 8 - 20 characters. Of those characters, at least one had to be a capital letter, one had to be a number and one had to be a symbol (@#$%&*). Really?
Needless to say, it wasn't a very constructive day. At least I'm set up for the most part.
Now I'm going to slack the rest of the day.

Tomorrow, it's only a day away.

Starting tomorrow I will begin my job search.
After the initial shock of being laid off, I told myself that I would start applying and actively looking the first week of March.
I'm not sure what to expect. I expect to find a lot of jobs to apply for but I'm not sure what to expect in terms of being called in for an interview and then actually getting a job.
Since my last job search I have completed my degree in Business Administration and I've gained an additional eight years of experience. My feeling is that my biggest obstacle will be finding a job that pays the same as what I just left.
So, tonight I get organized for the search.